wow. what a couple weeks/days/etc.
so the work transition is totally under way. going well, there's some confusion going on, but given time and some clarification, it should be ok. i like my new cube, so that's cool. it's cute.
lola's got ANOTHER cold. she was well for maybe 3 or 4 days.
i'm STILL sick, same shit from before. it faded and came back the past couple days.
nick's getting sick, damnit.
my car is messed up again. the 4th and final ignition coil died today. so we have to borrow mom's car AGAIN until we can get mine fixed, which should, hopefully, only be a couple days. we'll deal with the catalytic converter later.
the dogs have fleas. we've done everything we can think of. it's terrible, we feel terrible for them. we're getting it under control, but it's still shitty.
maya's hips are hurting her. i can tell she's in pain. i feel bad for her.
we keep forgetting to get our old hard drive to liz and chris to see if he can retrieve anything - just so scatterbrained with all that's going on. it'll be ok though.
baby's waking up. all for now i guess.
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
busy bee
I’ve been so busy lately. We bought another company at work, and we’re working on the acquisition and there’s so many issues that have to be dealt with and so many issues that are coming up. Right now we’re working out of their building and ours. Eventually (I think next week) the office workers will start coming over here, which’ll make things easier, but their warehouse will remain open and active for a while b/c we have to transfer their stock to our location and start re-routing the PO deliveries to our location too. It’s such a mess. I know it’ll get worked out and all that, but in the interim it’s a mess.
I’m not sure what they’re going to do with me up here. I’ve been doing Purchasing, placing orders, expediting reports and stuff as well as inventory control, shipping & receiving – but now we’re getting more buyers and from what the “higher ups” have sent out, they (the new buyers) will be doing all the Purchasing – but my question is where does that leave me? I don’t want to be the Milton of the office – the one that has to do all the shit work that no one wants to do. When I was hired, it was to be Bobby’s assistant, and that’s kind of taken a back seat the past few years b/c we’ve needed help in other departments b/c we’ve been short staffed – I’m praying that I’ll be put back in that original assistant position. That’s what I want. I don’t want to be the bitch of the office. I don’t think Bobby’ll let that happen. I don’t think Chris will do that to me. I hope, at least.
Nick and I want to move. We want to move to Marion to be closer to my mom. It’s not super far away so we could still get to work and see friends and family, but it’s a nicer area with less crime and better schools. I don’t know how we’ll do this, but we’re gonna save and see. Then mom could keep Lo, which would be super awesome as well. It’d be about as far away as if we lived in Collierville or something like that. With our credit though, I don’t know if we’ll be able to. We’ll see I guess.
I’m not sure what they’re going to do with me up here. I’ve been doing Purchasing, placing orders, expediting reports and stuff as well as inventory control, shipping & receiving – but now we’re getting more buyers and from what the “higher ups” have sent out, they (the new buyers) will be doing all the Purchasing – but my question is where does that leave me? I don’t want to be the Milton of the office – the one that has to do all the shit work that no one wants to do. When I was hired, it was to be Bobby’s assistant, and that’s kind of taken a back seat the past few years b/c we’ve needed help in other departments b/c we’ve been short staffed – I’m praying that I’ll be put back in that original assistant position. That’s what I want. I don’t want to be the bitch of the office. I don’t think Bobby’ll let that happen. I don’t think Chris will do that to me. I hope, at least.
Nick and I want to move. We want to move to Marion to be closer to my mom. It’s not super far away so we could still get to work and see friends and family, but it’s a nicer area with less crime and better schools. I don’t know how we’ll do this, but we’re gonna save and see. Then mom could keep Lo, which would be super awesome as well. It’d be about as far away as if we lived in Collierville or something like that. With our credit though, I don’t know if we’ll be able to. We’ll see I guess.
Thursday, May 6, 2010
dog rants and worries
I think Lulu and Maya are getting really old.
I know they aren’t adjusting well to Lola. Lulu tries her best to stay away from her, Maya loves her but doesn’t understand that she is much bigger than Lo. To help give them and us time to relax, we put them outside daily for about 30 minutes to an hour each time (sometimes 2 or 3 times a day, most days just once a day). They’re dogs, dogs should be fine outside for 10 minutes. Dogs should be fine outside for an hour.
Lulu and Maya are NOT fine outside for any longer than a couple minutes.
Maya freaks at the idea of setting foot in the grass and instead shits and pisses on the carport and then sits on the steps, pressing her body into the back door because she’s TERRIFIED of everything.
Lulu isn’t scared of grass, but after she’s done her business she sits on the steps and “asses” until she hurts herself. What is “assing” you ask? “Assing” is when Lulu sits down, puts her butt up against something, and then slightly jumps, (while barking) resulting in her butt rubbing up and down against whatever she’s sitting near. Normally she asses people – lately she’s begun assing the stairs outside – but she doesn’t just do it to scratch her butt, she does it until she’s pulled out fur and rubbed her skin raw and made it bleed – and then she keeps on. For every minute she’s outside, after she’s shit/pissed/eaten Maya’s poop/whatever, she’s assing – and she’s hurting herself.
But we need them to be outside sometimes! THEY’RE DOGS! They bark at the wind, they bark at passing cars, they bark at nothing – Lola needs naps that aren’t interrupted by barking and we need peace and quiet. They BOTH have some weird skin disorder (the vet thought it was nuts that 2 dogs of different breeds would have the same thing in the same house, but they do) that causes them to STINK, so we need them to go outside to try and keep our house from smelling like a stinky dog. Maya’s got some additional skin disorder and thyroid condition that’s causing her to lose her hair in patches and the furballs on the floor are horrible and gross and I just can’t clean fast enough. Lola needs playtime without them in the way (it’s not like we have a big house). Maya gets under foot CONSTANTLY (you can literally walk toward her and she will not move so you end up pushing her out of the way with your legs. It’s like she no longer understands that you can’t walk thru her big ass). So it’s either block them off in the kitchen or put them outside. Blocking them off in the kitchen all the time seems cruel, so we try and give them free time by putting them outside.
But with the way they act it’s like we can’t put them outside. IT’S OUTSIDE! It’s not the end of the world! Why is Maya scared of outside? Why does Lulu ass until she hurts herself? They’re old, but not THAT old! Lulu’s 8 ½ (9 in December) and Maya’s 7 – so they shouldn’t be senile just yet.
I really think it has to do with Lola. Really. I hate that, but they aren’t the same dogs now. I can’t fix that. Lola’s more important than they are and that’s the truth – but how can I keep them happy? I mean it seems to me that they’re miserable.
Is Lulu so starved for attention that she’d hurt herself? Is that why she’s doing that?
Is Maya so starved for attention that she feels the need to bark all the time b/c bad attention is better than no attention?
Is that what this is?
If so, I can’t help them. We love them, we give them attention, we feed them, but they’re dogs. Lola gets the attention, she will always win. Always.
So then the question becomes, how do we fix this? Should I try to find adoptive homes for them? Who wants to adopt a big, old, skittish mutt with a skin disorder and a thyroid disfunction? Who wants to adopt an old shih tzu with a skin disorder? Should I just not worry about it? Just let them do whatever they’re doing and put wound cream on Lulu’s butt when she hurts herself and give them the love and attention we can? And what if they feel that love and attention isn’t sufficient? They’ve had 6 and 7 years of nothing but love and attention directed at them – now that Lola’s here, she’s getting it all. Lulu I KNOW is jealous – Maya I think is jealous a bit, but not too bad b/c she likes Lola.
I just kinda don’t know what to do. I’m lost on it. Hell man, as terrible as this sounds, part of me has even wondered if we should just put them both down. I mean, if they’re so unhappy, and they have their medical issues, why not? I won’t, but it’s crossed my mind as one of those “should I” questions.
UGH!!!!
Lulu:
Maya:
I know they aren’t adjusting well to Lola. Lulu tries her best to stay away from her, Maya loves her but doesn’t understand that she is much bigger than Lo. To help give them and us time to relax, we put them outside daily for about 30 minutes to an hour each time (sometimes 2 or 3 times a day, most days just once a day). They’re dogs, dogs should be fine outside for 10 minutes. Dogs should be fine outside for an hour.
Lulu and Maya are NOT fine outside for any longer than a couple minutes.
Maya freaks at the idea of setting foot in the grass and instead shits and pisses on the carport and then sits on the steps, pressing her body into the back door because she’s TERRIFIED of everything.
Lulu isn’t scared of grass, but after she’s done her business she sits on the steps and “asses” until she hurts herself. What is “assing” you ask? “Assing” is when Lulu sits down, puts her butt up against something, and then slightly jumps, (while barking) resulting in her butt rubbing up and down against whatever she’s sitting near. Normally she asses people – lately she’s begun assing the stairs outside – but she doesn’t just do it to scratch her butt, she does it until she’s pulled out fur and rubbed her skin raw and made it bleed – and then she keeps on. For every minute she’s outside, after she’s shit/pissed/eaten Maya’s poop/whatever, she’s assing – and she’s hurting herself.
But we need them to be outside sometimes! THEY’RE DOGS! They bark at the wind, they bark at passing cars, they bark at nothing – Lola needs naps that aren’t interrupted by barking and we need peace and quiet. They BOTH have some weird skin disorder (the vet thought it was nuts that 2 dogs of different breeds would have the same thing in the same house, but they do) that causes them to STINK, so we need them to go outside to try and keep our house from smelling like a stinky dog. Maya’s got some additional skin disorder and thyroid condition that’s causing her to lose her hair in patches and the furballs on the floor are horrible and gross and I just can’t clean fast enough. Lola needs playtime without them in the way (it’s not like we have a big house). Maya gets under foot CONSTANTLY (you can literally walk toward her and she will not move so you end up pushing her out of the way with your legs. It’s like she no longer understands that you can’t walk thru her big ass). So it’s either block them off in the kitchen or put them outside. Blocking them off in the kitchen all the time seems cruel, so we try and give them free time by putting them outside.
But with the way they act it’s like we can’t put them outside. IT’S OUTSIDE! It’s not the end of the world! Why is Maya scared of outside? Why does Lulu ass until she hurts herself? They’re old, but not THAT old! Lulu’s 8 ½ (9 in December) and Maya’s 7 – so they shouldn’t be senile just yet.
I really think it has to do with Lola. Really. I hate that, but they aren’t the same dogs now. I can’t fix that. Lola’s more important than they are and that’s the truth – but how can I keep them happy? I mean it seems to me that they’re miserable.
Is Lulu so starved for attention that she’d hurt herself? Is that why she’s doing that?
Is Maya so starved for attention that she feels the need to bark all the time b/c bad attention is better than no attention?
Is that what this is?
If so, I can’t help them. We love them, we give them attention, we feed them, but they’re dogs. Lola gets the attention, she will always win. Always.
So then the question becomes, how do we fix this? Should I try to find adoptive homes for them? Who wants to adopt a big, old, skittish mutt with a skin disorder and a thyroid disfunction? Who wants to adopt an old shih tzu with a skin disorder? Should I just not worry about it? Just let them do whatever they’re doing and put wound cream on Lulu’s butt when she hurts herself and give them the love and attention we can? And what if they feel that love and attention isn’t sufficient? They’ve had 6 and 7 years of nothing but love and attention directed at them – now that Lola’s here, she’s getting it all. Lulu I KNOW is jealous – Maya I think is jealous a bit, but not too bad b/c she likes Lola.
I just kinda don’t know what to do. I’m lost on it. Hell man, as terrible as this sounds, part of me has even wondered if we should just put them both down. I mean, if they’re so unhappy, and they have their medical issues, why not? I won’t, but it’s crossed my mind as one of those “should I” questions.
UGH!!!!
Lulu:
Maya:
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
well sweet ass sweet and be careful what you ask for
today is a great day. i'm not allowed to say why, but i love my husband and he's great and i'm proud of his awesomeness. thank you god. that is all.
on to the being careful bit... last night i was holding lo, trying to get her to sleep and she had finally passed out, been asleep for about 20 minutes so i decided to get up and put her in her bed so i could have some free time to fart around on the computer - i get up and walk towards the hall and the wind blows and MAYA STARTS BARKING like a freaking retard!!! of course that wakes up lo - so i sit back down on the couch, continuing the awesomeness that is the last season of lost - and since nick was out back, i called him and told him to, "let the dogs out and let them just run away b/c i'm sick of them barking and waking up the baby!!!" so he let 'em out and went about his business farting around in his garage.
fast forward about an hour. lo finally passed out and i got her down in her bed. i had just finished up watching a sad, sad episode of lost (jin and sun will be missed, and damnit if sayid didn't come back to being awesome before his untimely end). nick finishes up outside and comes inside, letting in maya - then asks me if lulu was in the house. i said, "no" and that's when he realized that lulu must've gotten out while he had the gate open b/c he didn't know she was outside. so nick got to drive around the neighborhood looking for lulu the retard. luckily when she does get out, she never goes far, so we found her on the other side of the house next to us so it's cool - but still, it's one of those "be careful what you ask for" things.
on to the being careful bit... last night i was holding lo, trying to get her to sleep and she had finally passed out, been asleep for about 20 minutes so i decided to get up and put her in her bed so i could have some free time to fart around on the computer - i get up and walk towards the hall and the wind blows and MAYA STARTS BARKING like a freaking retard!!! of course that wakes up lo - so i sit back down on the couch, continuing the awesomeness that is the last season of lost - and since nick was out back, i called him and told him to, "let the dogs out and let them just run away b/c i'm sick of them barking and waking up the baby!!!" so he let 'em out and went about his business farting around in his garage.
fast forward about an hour. lo finally passed out and i got her down in her bed. i had just finished up watching a sad, sad episode of lost (jin and sun will be missed, and damnit if sayid didn't come back to being awesome before his untimely end). nick finishes up outside and comes inside, letting in maya - then asks me if lulu was in the house. i said, "no" and that's when he realized that lulu must've gotten out while he had the gate open b/c he didn't know she was outside. so nick got to drive around the neighborhood looking for lulu the retard. luckily when she does get out, she never goes far, so we found her on the other side of the house next to us so it's cool - but still, it's one of those "be careful what you ask for" things.
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
horrible horrible news...
Nine Inch Nails is officially dead.
It’s over.
For real.
Trent’s still making music and I’ll love it, but it’s no longer NIN.
I’m actually teary eyed.
The new music is his wife singing.
Yoko.
Not Trent.
Not right.
Not how it should be.
She can join in, but HE'S the one that should be singing.
It's him that makes the magic.
It’s over.
For real.
Trent’s still making music and I’ll love it, but it’s no longer NIN.
I’m actually teary eyed.
The new music is his wife singing.
Yoko.
Not Trent.
Not right.
Not how it should be.
She can join in, but HE'S the one that should be singing.
It's him that makes the magic.
holy crap i think i fixed it!!!
i think i fixed the comment problem, by making it show up in a pop up window.
leave me a comment, let's test it out :)
leave me a comment, let's test it out :)
this morning she cried... :(
I said once before that while I was kinda sad that Lo cried when I dropped her off at daycare, that deep down it made me feel good b/c it meant she loves me. Well, she wasn’t really crying, she was kinda crying – you know, the “I’m thinking about crying so I’m gonna start making the noise now in the hopes you’ll pick me back up” cry. That cry was ok. That cry made me secretly feel good b/c of the baby love directed my way.
This morning she full on cried. She kicked the instant Linda came near her (normally she leans forward and kisses and hugs her and wants her to hold her), and she was full on snotting and crying and reaching for me when I left. That did NOT make me feel good at all. That made me want to go back inside, get her, and just bring her precious little butt to work with me. That was terrible. That was NOT OK. I hate that cry.
I pray that one day I can quit work and stay home with her. I don’t have to win the lottery or anything like that, I just hope and pray that one day Nick will make enough money that we could survive on just his paycheck (b/c he wants me to be a stay at home mom too). And he doesn’t have to make millions either, just enough to pay our bills and stuff. Unfortunately, we have to have both paychecks to live as broke as we live right now – so me not working won’t happen anytime soon (if ever). It’s sad.
I hope that tomorrow she doesn’t cry like that again. I miss my baby.
This morning she full on cried. She kicked the instant Linda came near her (normally she leans forward and kisses and hugs her and wants her to hold her), and she was full on snotting and crying and reaching for me when I left. That did NOT make me feel good at all. That made me want to go back inside, get her, and just bring her precious little butt to work with me. That was terrible. That was NOT OK. I hate that cry.
I pray that one day I can quit work and stay home with her. I don’t have to win the lottery or anything like that, I just hope and pray that one day Nick will make enough money that we could survive on just his paycheck (b/c he wants me to be a stay at home mom too). And he doesn’t have to make millions either, just enough to pay our bills and stuff. Unfortunately, we have to have both paychecks to live as broke as we live right now – so me not working won’t happen anytime soon (if ever). It’s sad.
I hope that tomorrow she doesn’t cry like that again. I miss my baby.
Monday, May 3, 2010
Abercrombie and Fitch is the place for rock...
Man I hate being sick! What I hate even more is when I get Lola sick. I was SO sick Friday night, and my throat was hurting so baaaad – and then Saturday Lola started to show symptoms. Poor baby. For about 3 or 4 months there she didn’t have any colds and it was GRAND, but then she got that enterovirus and now she’s got a stupid cold! All green and snotty and coughing all over the place. I mean, she’s better today than she was yesterday – and she slept better last night than the night before, so there’s progress towards feeling good, but I hate that she has to feel bad at all.
Poor Nick had a pretty lame birthday. We were broke, so he played Metal Gear Solid and I went to bed at 8:00 with the baby. So he just stayed up playing his game. Sucks. I wish we had been able to do something else. He deserves much more than that. If I had a random large dollar amount, I’d take him out to dinner some place nice, I’d buy him a new game or two for the PS3, I’d get him an awesome cake – I’d make him feel as special as I could, ya know what I mean?
The power went out with the storm this weekend, so Saturday we had to find something to do until it came back on – so we went to the mall. Lo used her backpack baby leash so she could walk around. We walked past Abercrombie and Fitch and Lola decided it was a dance club and would walk in there and start her little bouncy bopping dance she does. It was the most precious thing in the world. She can do the smallest thing and if she does it, that makes it awesome. Still thinking of maybe one day having another kid, but I’m scared we won’t give it the attention it needs or that we’d deprive Lo of attention, or show favoritism or something like that. I’m sure all parents of 2+ kids thought that with each additional pregnancy and each time they realized those fears were unfounded – but it’s still one of the fears I’ve got. We’ll see I guess.
Have to save up the money to fix my car. Nick’s like 99.9999% sure he knows what’s wrong, we just have to be able to afford to fix it. So luckily mom is OK with me borrowing her car until we get it fixed – which will hopefully be done in a couple weeks. Nick needs shims for his motorcycle too, so those are in the budget too. I’m just praying for good fortune to smile on us b/c we need it.
Poor Nick had a pretty lame birthday. We were broke, so he played Metal Gear Solid and I went to bed at 8:00 with the baby. So he just stayed up playing his game. Sucks. I wish we had been able to do something else. He deserves much more than that. If I had a random large dollar amount, I’d take him out to dinner some place nice, I’d buy him a new game or two for the PS3, I’d get him an awesome cake – I’d make him feel as special as I could, ya know what I mean?
The power went out with the storm this weekend, so Saturday we had to find something to do until it came back on – so we went to the mall. Lo used her backpack baby leash so she could walk around. We walked past Abercrombie and Fitch and Lola decided it was a dance club and would walk in there and start her little bouncy bopping dance she does. It was the most precious thing in the world. She can do the smallest thing and if she does it, that makes it awesome. Still thinking of maybe one day having another kid, but I’m scared we won’t give it the attention it needs or that we’d deprive Lo of attention, or show favoritism or something like that. I’m sure all parents of 2+ kids thought that with each additional pregnancy and each time they realized those fears were unfounded – but it’s still one of the fears I’ve got. We’ll see I guess.
Have to save up the money to fix my car. Nick’s like 99.9999% sure he knows what’s wrong, we just have to be able to afford to fix it. So luckily mom is OK with me borrowing her car until we get it fixed – which will hopefully be done in a couple weeks. Nick needs shims for his motorcycle too, so those are in the budget too. I’m just praying for good fortune to smile on us b/c we need it.
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