stress.... and motherhood. aren't those the same thing?

lo got sick around 2am on tuesday. 103 fever. obviously feeling terrible. stayed home with her. wednesday she still had the fever, stayed home again. wednesday afternoon it snowed for what seems like the millionth time this winter - totally weird for memphis - so we stayed home on thursday as well b/c the roads were crap. lo was better tho. nap time came and she fought me - and punched me in the throat. it hurt. i cried. and then realized that i couldn't stop crying. i cried for about 10 minutes straight. i walked around the house crying, with lo following me, saying, "i sowwy, i sowwy" and i kept telling her it wasn't her fault. it sucked. i don't know where that came from. she was so sweet trying to make me feel better tho. i ended up laying on her bed in the hopes she'd go to sleep, but instead she attempted to tickle me to make me laugh. it was the cutest thing in the world. i have no idea where that outburst came from, but i can only attribute it to stress from being home with a toddler all day, and her being sick and me worrying about her, and stressing over losing money b/c i wasn't at work and all that mess.
works been stressful too.
realized that i can't talk to anyone from work about anything at work other than my boss. you never know who's listening and you never know who's talking. sucks, but i learned my lesson. it's ok now at least. but we have to work our asses off to prove that we're valuable. we can do it. no one else could run this place like bobby does - and i think everyone knows that. if they don't, then their blind.
been doing weight watchers again, like i said yesterday. i've been doing well. lost 13.6 lbs as of this morning - so i'm having a bacon cheeseburger for lunch - YAY!!!

hello 2011.

hello 2011. haven't posted since freakin' september. oh well. no biggie. we got lo a twin bed last weekend. she's doing really good in it. still ends up in bed with us, i don't care :)
she found a paci yesterday. no idea where it came from but she HAD to have it. ugh. that again. it'll "break" in the next day or so.
making chili for dinner.
watching monsters, inc for the GAZILLIONTH TIME!
trying to quit smoking again.
week 2 of chantix. still smoking, but NOWHERE near as much, so i'm proud of myself.
started weight watchers in january.
lost 12 lbs so far. hoping to lose this week, not sure if i will b/c i've been eating myself out of house and home - at least it feels that way.