i'm having a serious depression right now. i don't know why, i'm just very sad. i don't want to smile, i don't want to laugh, i don't want anyone to try to cheer me up, i just want to sit here with this unhappy look on my face, on the verge of tears and just be unhappy. i don't enjoy this. i can't explain it. i'm on my period, but that can't be it... can it? i've not have hormonal swings this severe since pregnancy, but even then i wasn't depressed. i'm not pregnant, i've still got my iud, so then if it were hormonal, it would be attributed to my period - which that doesn't make sense b/c even during puberty i didn't get like this because of my period. maybe it's just circumstances of the past few days. maybe the constant being broke and having to borrow money is doing it. that would make sense. but then i'd be able to pinpoint the unhappiness and know for a fact that THIS or THAT were the reason.
fuck it.
i don't know.
i don't care.
i'm depressed and wholly unhappy.
hoping it'll go away soon.
i do not like this.