thinking it thru...

Nick and I are trying to find a home for Lulu and Maya... so we thought.
I sent out feeler messages to some pet rescues and the SPCA 2 days ago, and someone already says they’ll take Lulu. I wasn’t expecting that. Honestly, I thought that I’d send the message and that no one would ever even respond. I can’t imagine actually not having either of them. I want to fight and make it so we can keep them. I want to take every penny we get and put it towards them.
They need medicine. They need flea stuff and heartworm stuff and their yearly shots. They need to be groomed.
They’re old, we’ve had them forever. It’s fine to rationalize about how it’d be best to get rid of them, to let someone else keep them happy for their last years… but then you think “NO! I SHOULD MAKE THEM HAPPY!!”
Why can’t I do it? Money? Can we work something out? I don’t know. I can’t say yes. I can’t let someone take Lulu this weekend. It’s so fast. I know it’s stupid, but I really didn’t think anyone would offer to help – and besides, I knew that if someone DID offer, that it’d be for Lulu and not Maya. No one ever wants to help out a big dog :(. I can’t see myself without her. Without either of them. It’s very depressing. They’re my dogs.
We have to come up with a way to keep them. We just do. We’re taking them to the groomers on Saturday. Week after next, we’ll take Lulu to the vet and hopefully she’ll just need some meds and that’s it. I think 2 weeks after that we can take Maya. Then maybe a couple weeks later we can get their shots.
I really don’t know. I know the logical thing to do is let someone take them, but that’s not what my heart or even my head says to do. Everything says keep them and make it work.
Ok that’s what we’ll do.
They may stink, but Nick can bathe them every other day. We’ll budget to get them groomed once a month if need be. I just really don’t want to lose them. I love them.