random thoughts.
moving in the middle of high school sucked. not only because it was moving in the middle of high school - but because it made me not as important/memorable in classmates minds. so whenever there's a reunion or something i'm left out even if i'd like to participate. the people i went to school with in the beginning don't really remember/think of me for those things b/c i didn't graduate with them - and the people i went to school with in the end don't remember/think of me for those things b/c i was only with them for a few months and they'd formed their friendship bonds with the people they'd been with since the beginning, i don't really register for them. so that sucks.

we're fixing up the house. it's costing a lot more than i thought it would. finding new damage/shit that has to be fixed along the way that we never planned on. probably have no savings by the time we're done. scary. but at least it'll be pretty.

i never feel like i look how i'm supposed to look. like, i'm losing weight and stuff, but i'm still fat, and even if i lost another 50 lbs, i still won't look how i feel like i should. not sure what that means, but i know i shouldn't look like i do.

i need more tattoos. i know that for a fact. i need at least 3 more. i know what at least 2 of them are and where i want them.